…feels like an oncoming train these days.
So what do I do? I cook, I eat, and I plod on.
Here’s a sampling of what I cooked last week (I’m a week late, I know).
Top: pot roast with fresh herbs and veggies.
Left: broccoli, ham egg and cheese frittata.
Right: white bean, kale and sausage stew.
Just trying to keep my head above water (pretty literally these days, we’re experiencing record rains after being in drought for 5 years). June 5 cannot get here soon enough.
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When is good enough good enough?
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I won’t lie, I didn’t take a picture this week in my usual outfit. I am also up this week. Way up. I know what I did–grazed, and ate way more than I should have. I’ll pick up again next week and take care of business.
Next week will be better. It has to be. I did decide this week to continue on with more vegetables and fruits since I like the way I feel when I eat them. So today I had calabacitas (zucchini, corn and garlic cooked in a chicken broth with a little cheese), grapes, a mandarin orange, a green salad with strawberries and almonds, and some hummus on red leaf lettuce. Tomorrow I’m having almost the same stuff, just adding carrot chips to the mix.
So anyway…
Saturday night, my school had its senior prom. I’d chaperoned it before, and decided that I would do it again. The group of seniors that I teach this year and I are pretty close. I adore all of them, even the difficult ones, and so I wanted to share this milestone with them.
Not gonna lie, I was stylin’.
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Slow and steady wins the race, right? This week I went veggie heavy and it seems to have paid off. So I’ll be doing that again this week too. I really like how I feel when I eat veggies, so this will be something that I continue to do.
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Plodding along this week. I ate more veggies this week, and liked how I felt afterward so I decided to go veggie heavy this week. I think the extra fiber will also be good for me–hell, I know it will be. I’m learning to listen more to what my body feels like having, and this week it really wanted more veggies.
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I’m late with this week’s post but life happens. I got notification earlier in the week that one of my cousins had passed away, and the funeral services were this weekend, finishing up today with the funeral Mass. So I’ve been a bit preoccupied as we had to travel to be with family, which was far more important than updating this thing.
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Well, the reset got me back down to my pre-Christmas weight, which is good. I had to relearn the things I learned during that pre-op period, which were tough. My doctor’s plan was very strict as pre-op plans go, so I knew the week was going to be hard.
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This is a quickie update as I have been traveling for work all weekend and am only home for a few hours before jetting off (literally) to New Orleans on another work-related trip.
I did not weigh today or take pictures because I was traveling, but I will do both tomorrow morning before I head out. I did make it a point to go walking yesterday while we were gone so I did squeeze in nearly 5 miles of walking.
The plan this week is to get to the gym to do a little weightlifting and bike riding, and maybe some swimming. It’s still not warm enough outside for me to really want to swim, but the light at the end of the tunnel is this: spring is a few short days away!
Birthday celebration in New Orleans tomorrow night, again on Tuesday (when my birthday ACTUALLY is), and for the rest of the week because I celebrate ALL WEEK long. I’m treating this week as vacation time, because it is. So I’m reverting to how I tracked when I was in New Orleans for Thanksgiving: keeping portions sensible and making sure I log exercise, vitamins and water. Then it’s back to the grind next Monday once my schedule returns to the real world.
Photo update tomorrow. I’m considering weighing in monthly now as I’m trying to maintain. I’ll still track weight weekly but I think I will only report monthly. Not sure what I’m going to do but I’ll figure it out. More later…work to get done before hitting the sack.
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I think my doctors were right. The weight range I’m in now is probably a good weight for me. For the past 3 months, I have bounced back and forth, up and down around the same weight on the scale, and I am discouraged. I feel like I have disappointed myself. I’m not giving up this fight, but I’m not giving it my best, and I know it.
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La Guerra de La Gorda 