This post is going to be fairly brief, as things around these parts are crazy busy these days. But the crazy busy is in a good way. So I’ll do a quick drive-by update with bullet points, because it’s about all I have time for right now.
- Gallbladder surgery went well. My recovery was smooth and uneventful. I did learn at my follow-up appointment that my gallbladder had stopped ejecting bile properly, and as a result, cholesterol and bile had accumulated on the inside walls of the sac. As my surgeon said, “It was definitely time for it to come out.” So it’s good that I had the surgery when I did.
- I also learned that I no longer have a fatty liver. When I had my gallbladder removed, my surgeon did a liver biopsy, as the lab work I had done on my trip to the ER in June gave him cause to want to poke around there. The path report revealed that I no longer had evidence of fatty liver disease. This is huge, given that on the day of my sleeve surgery a little over 2 years ago, my liver had 60% fatty infiltration. My surgeon was thrilled to learn that my fatty liver had been resolved by my WLS.
- Looks like I’ll be having more surgery this year. UGH. My right knee has decided it’s had enough of being patched together with a neoprene brace. I’m looking at getting it scoped over Christmas so that I can have 2 weeks off my feet, and more importantly, 2 weeks with someone around who can help me! And depending on what happens with my shoulder, there may be yet another surgery in the cards for me this year. My left shoulder has decided it’s had enough and can’t even. So I will be heading BACK to the ortho to find out what the hell is going on with my shoulder once I get back from being out of town this week.
- Regain is real, y’all. So for those of you who are early on in the process of having WLS, or who have just had it, please don’t delude yourselves into thinking, “I’m going to lose this weight FOREVER!!!!” or say stuff like “That’s ______ pounds gone FOREVER!!!!” Or at the very least, don’t say those things without realizing that while yes, losing the weight as a result of surgical intervention is fast and seemingly easy, keeping it off is much, much more difficult. I’ll be real with y’all–I’ve gained back about 35 pounds this past year (scary, huh?). I know exactly why and how, and I’ve decided to go back to a devil I know to lose it. I’ll be starting Weight Watchers online next week in an attempt to get back down to the weight I was at this time last year. I felt good, I looked good, I slept better, and I moved around better. I need the structure that the WW program provides because clearly I can’t provide it for myself right now. Also? All I have ever tried to do in my life is lose weight. I’ve never known how to maintain it. Losing weight is something I am good at; maintenance is not. I’m scared I’ll never learn how to maintain a weight I can live with. So in the meantime, I’ll be back to weight loss mode so that I can at least have a shot at feeling good about how I look and feel again.
Well, that’s all I’ve got time for…work and meal prep are calling.
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This past week, I joined millions of others in the world who walk around without a gallbladder. Do I feel better without it? Probably. I wasn’t miserable before it came out, but when 4 doctors in 2 years tell you it needs to come out, it probably needs to come out. So I had it done.
The surgery went well, thank goodness because I was really nervous about it. It was a good thing I had it done. Apparently, my gallbladder loved my intestines so much that it was stuck to them, which caused my surgery to be a bit longer than planned. So removing it was a good plan, as this could have caused bigger problems later on had I delayed the procedure.
I was sent home the same afternoon. In by 10 am, out by 4 (I take a long time to recover from anesthesia, apparently). I was home and resting comfortably by 5, able to eat soup by 7 that night with minimal nausea. I’ve done pretty well since, but I’ve also kept my food pretty bland and low-fat. No major issues, just a bit of soreness at the largest incisions (not unexpected). I stopped taking my pain meds Thursday night as I haven’t needed them since. Besides, narcotic pain medication has some pretty undesirable side effects–itching and constipation to name a couple–so when I am placed on them, I take them for as short a time period as I can bear. I’ve been fine without them since. I’m on restricted lifting (nothing heavier than a jug of milk), and working out is off until next month so I won’t be back in the gym until September. I want to make sure my abdominal muscles have healed sufficiently so that I don’t cause myself to have a hernia (Lord knows I can’t afford another frickin’ surgery–this “pray you don’t get sick health plan” is bullshit, but that’s a post for another time and place).
I did have a few revelations the day of my surgery, though.
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Well, color me a little surprised. I knew last week’s weight gain was water weight due to hormones, but I wasn’t expecting all of it to come back off and then some. I wonder if some of the weight that came off is because I have been on an antibiotic that dehydrates me. I got diagnosed with strep at the tail end of the week and felt pretty miserable the last few days but am feeling better now.
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First, this is me in the first goal dress I ever bought myself, when I was trying to get my weight down from nearly 440 pounds.
200 pounds later, I can wear this without any problems. I’ll actually have to have the bodice taken in a little bit pretty soon.
-200 pounds later.
Today I had a 9-month follow-up appointment.
It’s a good thing, too.
As I was talking with the PA about how I’d been feeling, I was having the same abdominal pains I’d had earlier in the week: dull, intermittent pain under my ribcage on my right side.
He said, “It’s good that you are here. Let me go get the doctor.”
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Tagged challenges, consequences of WLS, follow up, gallbladder, gallstones, NSV's, post-op life, shit is hard, sleeve gastrectomy, sorry for sleeve rocking, success, surgery, the body is a funny thing, the sleeve, VSG, vsg realness, weight loss surgery, werk!, what's up doc?, WLS
These days, when a conversation begins with “You are looking good,” I never expect it to be followed by “Everyone was talking about you yesterday!”
But I suppose that when folks don’t see you in a while and you’ve lost nearly 150 pounds, it shouldn’t be a surprise.
This is also why a school is the worst place to keep anything on the down low.
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was a phrase I heard a lot today.
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This was a great week on the weight loss front. Did not see the size of this loss coming, that’s for sure!
But I’ll take it.
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A month ago, I began pre-op dieting so that I could lose as much weight as possible prior to surgery. At that time, I took measurements of my biceps, forearms, neck, chest, bust, waist, hip, thighs and calves so that I could see how much I would shrink over time.
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Tagged data, measurements, non-scale victory, sleeve gastrectomy, VSG, weight loss surgery, WLS
We left for the hospital Monday morning around 7 am, since I had to be there at 7:30 for check-in and pre-op vital signs and such. We arrived and went up to registration on the 2nd floor, where I checked in, paid my balance and began the longest waiting process of my young life.
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The last post I made to this blog was in June of 2012. This was the last time that I really invested time into taking care of myself.
Since then, I’ve backslid in the biggest of ways–not really paying attention to what I ate, how much I ate, or how much I moved. As a result I’ve gained back over half the weight I lost when I set out upon the latest of weight loss journeys that my adult life has been consumed with.
In January, I had a 6-month checkup with my primary care physician. Because I am diabetic, I must go in every 6 months and have my a1c, cholesterol, triglycerides and other things checked. I knew before I went in to do the lab work that the results would be dismal; I was just waiting for her to say them to my face.
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