What is pretty?
Have you ever given it much thought? I don’t want you to give me the societal expectation of pretty.
What is pretty to you? Think about it.
I had to think about this tonight while I sat on my therapist’s couch and told the story of my interaction with the Talbots salesgirl on Saturday. One of the things I left out of my story about my victorious trip there Saturday was this: while we were conversing about our respective struggles with our weight and what we had each done to fight them, she said to me, “You’re so pretty.” I thanked her and our conversation continued.
Posted in challenges, daily bites, eating, head trips, la guerra, post-op, self-image, vsg, weight loss surgery
Tagged challenges, daily bites, head trip, post-op eating, post-op life, self-image, shit is hard, side effects of WLS, the fat girl inside, therapy, VSG, vsg realness, WLS, work that head game
This morning I got the call:
“This is Dee from Dr. Nick’s office. I’m calling to give you your check-in time for Monday. You need to be at the hospital at 7:30 Monday morning…”
I heard nothing after that, even though she prattled on about the surgical instructions I’d already received from my pre-op nurse earlier this week–nothing by mouth after 10 pm Sunday night, the allowed protein shake for dinner and to be sure I take my blood pressure medication with a small sip of water Monday morning.
Monday morning at 7:30, I will be crossing the Rubicon. There is no looking back now. At this point, I’m all in. Continue reading
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Tagged empowerment, fighting the fat girl, grief, mourning myself, reflections, sadness, sleeve gastrectomy, the fat girl inside, VSG, WLS
There have been multiple times in the past few days when I have just wanted to lay down and quit. This has not been an easy row to hoe, that’s for sure.
I had been told by several people that the pre-op phase of this process was the most difficult, and now I know exactly what they meant.
Posted in pre-op, vsg, weight loss surgery
Tagged bigger than my body, don't quit, head trip, pre-op, pre-op dieting, shit is hard, sleeve gastrectomy, the fat girl inside, VSG, WLS