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Post-Op Week 83: Tired and In Need of a Reset

Posted on February 8, 2015 | 1 comment

Well, there went all the progress I made in January. My face here says it all. I’m frustrated.

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Post-Op Week 68 Progress Report: Disappointed

Posted on October 26, 2014 | Leave a comment

A little frustrated by my progress as of late but glad to see the scale is still trending downward. Not being able to be as active as I’d like has really thrown a wrench into my plans to exercise 5 days a week. I still go 5 days a week, but I feel like I can’t put in as hard a workout as I could before since my knee injury. I did go early Friday morning and swim, so that may be something I continue to do: get up at the asscrack of dawn and go swimming. There is something soothing about swimming back and forth for 40 laps. All I do is concentrate on breathing, and propelling myself forward. I don’t have to think about anything else. It’s very Zen.

I have an MRI scheduled for this coming Saturday morning to see what’s going on in my right knee. If I have torn meniscus cartilage, I will have to have the knee scoped. When, I have no idea. I will have to find the time between now and EVER to be out of commission for about two weeks. I am NOT jazzed about this. At. ALL.

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The Price of Obesity: Orthopedic Issues

Posted on October 23, 2014 | 3 comments

Is this:

This is an x-ray of my knees taken today at my orthopedic surgeon’s office. I went in today to have him look at my right knee, which I hurt last week and which was keeping me from walking and working out properly.

When the doctor finally came in to see me, after our initial pleasantries, his words to me were:

Your left knee actually looks worse on film.

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Post-Op Week 41 Progress Report: Buckling Down and Filling a Void

Posted on April 20, 2014 | 2 comments

Slight gain this week, but I am not surprised. Given that I lost nearly 6 pounds last week, this pound up doesn’t surprise me. I also had a bit more sodium than usual yesterday and didn’t drink as much water as I normally do. I’ve also eaten a little more starch than usual lately, which is not something I normally do either.

I know what I need to do; I just need to buckle down and do it. Sometimes self-discipline is tough. Believe it or not, self-discipline is something I’ve sorely lacked where eating is concerned. The lack of self-discipline in my eating is what got me to 440 pounds. So when I say that this new normal of mine has been more than challenging, I’m not exaggerating one bit.

I need to get back to my Daily Bite photojournaling. I log everything I eat and drink in MyFitnessPal, but I’ve fallen off the photojournaling for the past month. I really need to get back on that train, because I think it helps me add yet another layer of self-accountability, something else that I lacked for so long.

I won’t lie, I’ve slacked off in a lot of little ways. But the little things do add up to big things if you let them. So it’s time to tighten the reins, dial back the carb intake, increase my exercise, and get back on track. These last 64 pounds aren’t going to leave my body without some real hard work, and I’ve gotta put in work to get them gone. NOW.

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