Plodding along this week. I ate more veggies this week, and liked how I felt afterward so I decided to go veggie heavy this week. I think the extra fiber will also be good for me–hell, I know it will be. I’m learning to listen more to what my body feels like having, and this week it really wanted more veggies.
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Funerals are a hell of a way to start a week. Mourning + ovulation + work stress + general IDGAFery = up this week. Thankfully, this week does not look to be terribly stressful, especially as side projects wind down and I can finally get back to the business of taking care of myself the way I deserve to.
This just keeping my head above water business isn’t cutting it, and I’m tired of just getting by. That’s what it feels like I’ve done this year so far. I deserve so much more than just getting by. I don’t “just get by” in other areas of my life, so why when it comes to me is it acceptable?
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Well, the reset got me back down to my pre-Christmas weight, which is good. I had to relearn the things I learned during that pre-op period, which were tough. My doctor’s plan was very strict as pre-op plans go, so I knew the week was going to be hard.
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I think my doctors were right. The weight range I’m in now is probably a good weight for me. For the past 3 months, I have bounced back and forth, up and down around the same weight on the scale, and I am discouraged. I feel like I have disappointed myself. I’m not giving up this fight, but I’m not giving it my best, and I know it.
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Nearly as fast as I put on the weight I gained over the holidays, I lost it. Then regained it. Then lost it again. This rollercoaster ride my body’s taking me on is frustrating at most, but is what I suppose maintenance is at best. What I need to grapple with is this: am I ready to be here?
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Well, there went all the progress I made in January. My face here says it all. I’m frustrated.
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“Your body is the house you grew up in, how dare you try to burn it to the ground.” #effyourbeautystandards pic.twitter.com/Jg08HVnkwg
— Felisha (@felishacarolle) January 18, 2015
I did some maintenance on my house tonight. Went back to the gym and rode the bike on a hills program for 45 minutes and then (likely to the chagrin of my ortho guy) did light leg weights and some upper body. It felt good.
I think from now on, I will try to remember that my body is the house I grew up in. I need to take better care of it since it’s the house I’m going to live in the rest of my life.
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First week back at it and not too shabby, considering that I am now 18 months post-op. If I can lose this amount or more each week, I will see my goal weight by Christmas. I’m definitely learning patience right now!
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Not pleased by the scale this week but after some careful thought and some good old-fashioned data analysis (ever the scientist, I am), I know why I am up and into a weight range I do not feel comfortable being in.
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La Guerra de La Gorda 