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Image Distortion

Right now I look like this:

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So why do I still think that I look like this:

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The Little Things: Auditorium Edition

I had a faculty meeting today in our school’s Performing Arts Center. It is a 1500 seat auditorium with seats like this:

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At the beginning of the school year back in August, when we had a faculty meeting in this facility, I had to sit on the edge of the seat because I could not scoot back.  My hips were too wide to fit into the seat properly.

Today I’m pleased to note that I have 2 inches of clearance on either side of the seat.

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What Shedding Clothes Looks Like, WLS Edition

Seventeen shopping bags packed full of clothes I can no longer wear left my home today for Goodwill.  I haven’t outgrown them; they outgrew me.  Or is it more apropos to say I shrank out of them?  Either way, there was no need to keep them around.
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I hope another plus-sized woman or girl comes across them while she’s poppin’ tags and can use them.

I didn’t think they’d all fit in my Beetle.  I made them fit.  I was determined.  Because dammit, I wanted those clothes out of my house.  

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This is what the feeling of freedom looks like to me today:  shedding all these clothes as my body has shed 154 pounds and tries to settle into the body I’ve always been meant to have.

This feels AWESOME.

Loving Yourself Is Not Acceptance, Improvement Is

Columnist Gordon Keith of the Dallas Morning News wrote a wonderful piece that appeared in yesterday’s paper about self-acceptance and body image.
In his article, he discusses the increasing trend of body shaming in men, and his own personal experience growing up in the shadows of a fit and sculpted father and brother.  Because he didn’t feel he could ever achieve having bodies like theirs, he leaned on words and wit to stand out.  And if you’ve ever read his columns, heard him on the radio or seen him on television, then you know that he’s funny and insightful.

One of the things Keith says really stuck with me:

Loving yourself is not the complete acceptance of the way you are. It’s about trying to improve.

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Post-Op Week 35 Progress Report: The Bottomless Pit Edition

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I haven’t been very good about writing here every day.  Things in my world have been harried lately, and I’m not feeling good about it.  This week’s progress isn’t progress at all–it’s a big step back.
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Saturday in Photos

Today was a good day.  I’ll show you in pictures.

First, I crossed the 150 pounds lost mark:

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Left: me, minus 154 pounds. This is what I’ve lost since June 2013, when I began pre-op dieting. Right: me, minus 195 pounds–what I’m down from my heaviest recorded weight.

I’m nearly down 200 from my highest weight ever. I am now at the weight that it seems most folks who have the sleeve START at when they have surgery. This is both fantastic to me and distressing at the same time. Fantastic because I never imagined I’d be in this weight range, but distressing because I feel like I still have so much more to go to get to my goal.  I am feeling bones in places I have never felt them before, and seeing a body shape that I didn’t realize I had, and I’m wondering if perhaps 170 might be too thin?  I guess I won’t know until I get down under 200 pounds, but that isn’t going to happen for a while yet.

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I’m Growing Accustomed to My Face

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On the left: my old school ID badge, ca. 2006.  On the right:  me, last night.

Looking at my badge photo, I can’t believe I was actually that big.

Looking at my current photo, I can’t believe this is what I look like now.

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Monday In Photos

I am headed to bed soon so I thought I’d make this a quick photo post.

First, the fun shoes I wore this morning:

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Everyone should have at least one pair of fun shoes. This is my other pair.

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Greeting 2014 and Preparing for 6-Month Follow Up Visit

This is how I chose to greet the new year, head cold and all:

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And 2014 will be my year.  Oh yes, yes it will be.

Tomorrow, I have my six-month follow up appointment at my surgeon’s office.  Is it ridiculous that I’m mad that the high temps tomorrow are supposed to be in the 40s so I have to wear heavier clothes?   I could wear what I wore last time I was at my surgeon’s office but it would mean I’d freeze my ass off as it is a summerweight maxi dress, and besides, it is too large for me now.

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What Discipline, Determination and Drive Look Like

What do discipline, determination, and drive look like to you?

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