This is an x-ray of my knees taken today at my orthopedic surgeon’s office. I went in today to have him look at my right knee, which I hurt last week and which was keeping me from walking and working out properly.
When the doctor finally came in to see me, after our initial pleasantries, his words to me were:
Your left knee actually looks worse on film.
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Slowly headed back down toward my lowest adult weight again this week. I’m not stressing about the scale this week because I took measurements today and I’m down another 6 3/8 inches all around for a total of nearly 125 inches lost. So I guess when people say ‘you are really tiny,’ I really AM tiny. I have a tough time conceptualizing this about myself because I’ve never been small. And now I am. It’s trippy.
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Slight gain this week, but I am not surprised. Given that I lost nearly 6 pounds last week, this pound up doesn’t surprise me. I also had a bit more sodium than usual yesterday and didn’t drink as much water as I normally do. I’ve also eaten a little more starch than usual lately, which is not something I normally do either.
I know what I need to do; I just need to buckle down and do it. Sometimes self-discipline is tough. Believe it or not, self-discipline is something I’ve sorely lacked where eating is concerned. The lack of self-discipline in my eating is what got me to 440 pounds. So when I say that this new normal of mine has been more than challenging, I’m not exaggerating one bit.
I need to get back to my Daily Bite photojournaling. I log everything I eat and drink in MyFitnessPal, but I’ve fallen off the photojournaling for the past month. I really need to get back on that train, because I think it helps me add yet another layer of self-accountability, something else that I lacked for so long.
I won’t lie, I’ve slacked off in a lot of little ways. But the little things do add up to big things if you let them. So it’s time to tighten the reins, dial back the carb intake, increase my exercise, and get back on track. These last 64 pounds aren’t going to leave my body without some real hard work, and I’ve gotta put in work to get them gone. NOW.
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