Up 4.4 pounds this week but I know exactly why. I ate way more starchy carbs than usual while on vacation last week. This was a conscious choice I made, and I’m not sorry I did it. I knew what would happen if I did it, and I knew what the consequences would be. So I’m not surprised that I saw a jump on the scale this morning. I am surprised it wasn’t greater! But I’m also glad it wasn’t greater.
Posted in challenges, choices, eating, exercise, frustrated fat, goals, habits, la guerra, oh behave!, post-op, progreso, progress report, the body is a funny thing, the sleeve, vsg, weight loss surgery
Tagged being authentic, being real, benefits of wls, challenges, choices, dining out, eating, excess skin, exercise, fighting the fat girl, goals, keepin' it real, la guerra, loose skin, NSV's, oh behave!, omg I eat carbs!, post-op life, progreso, progress report, reflections, shit is hard, sleeve gastrectomy, stress, stress management, the body is a funny thing, the sleeve, travel, vacation, VSG, vsg realness, weight loss goals, WLS, workin' on my fitness
This week saw me back at home, back in my usual routine, and back down on the scale. I’m inching slowly toward goal, and I’m okay with the slow progress.
Posted in challenges, exercise, frustrated fat, goals, habits, la guerra, oh behave!, planning, post-op, progreso, reflections, self-image, success, the body is a funny thing, the sleeve, vsg, weight loss surgery, werk!
Tagged being authentic, being real, challenges, exercise, frustrated fat, goals, head trip, I work out, la guerra, little celebrations, loose skin, NSV's, oh behave!, planning for success, post-op life, progreso, progress report, shit is hard, sleeve gastrectomy, VSG, vsg realness, WLS, workin' on my fitness
This week’s progress is following the pattern that I have come to recognize at this time of my cycle: slight gain before my period, followed by a slightly larger loss. So I’m hopeful that next week will show a loss on the scale. I knew I was a little puffy this morning when I got up and my feet felt stiff and turgid and my rings were a bit more snug. That’s the big indicator that I’m retaining water, aside from feeling bloated and having tender breasts. That’ll come later in the week, I’m sure. UGH.
My eating wasn’t horrible this week but it wasn’t the best either. Gotta get my eating priorities in order and aim for goal. So glad this is the last week of school so I can spend more time focusing on getting to where I eventually want my weight to be. I also need to set smaller goals for myself with rewards–I haven’t done this in a while. I am 5 weeks away from my 1-year mark, and I’m not close to where I want to be by the time I see my doctor again–still 9 pounds away from doc’s goal, but 19 from where I want to be by July 10, when I see him for my 1-year appointment.
DISCLAIMER: Under the cut, you’re going to encounter what a body that has lost nearly 170 pounds (nearly 210 from its heaviest weight) really looks like. If you’re post-op, then you have likely encountered the same sights. If you’re pre-op, just consider the photos you’ll see prep for what lies ahead for you, especially if you have over 100 pounds to lose. And if you’re drinking the Haterade because you see fat shaming as sport, just move along. I don’t have time to trifle with people of your ilk. You see, one of the unspoken benefits of having lost all this weight is that the degree to which I care what others think is quite low. In fact:
about what you think about how I look. I don’t suffer any fools. SN: I love this meme…
Now that I’ve got that out of the way, let me proceed with the rest of the post after the jump.
Posted in challenges, exercise, frustrated fat, goals, la guerra, post-op, progreso, reflections, self-image, the body is a funny thing, the sleeve, vsg, weight loss surgery
Tagged being authentic, being real, body image, challenges, exercise, fighting the fat girl, frustrated fat, goals, Heavyweight Yoga, I work out, la guerra, loose skin, love thyself, oh behave!, post-op life, progreso, progress report, sagging skin, self-image, she's got skillz, shit is hard, sleeve gastrectomy, the body is a funny thing, the sleeve, VSG, vsg realness, werk!, WLS, work that head game, workin' on my fitness, wtf body?, yoga
It was superhero day at school, so I decided to rock my Super MadMen shirt.
As of yesterday, I hit the 10 months post-op mark. As is custom on the 8th of each month, I stepped onto the scale to see what I weighed so I could compare it to what I weighed the day I had surgery.
Since my surgery, I’ve lost 131 pounds. Including what I lost pre-op, I’ve lost 167 pounds.
I am 9 pounds from my surgeon’s goal weight for me. His goal for me is based on 70% EWL. I told him last year at my consult (which was about this time of year) that I was not content with “average” and that 70% wasn’t good enough.
So I set my personal goal 50 pounds lower than his.
I am 59 pounds from my goal.
It doesn’t even seem real. Seriously, pinch me, because I must be dreaming!
It does, however, seem possible. Perhaps within the next 7 months, even. That’d be the best Christmas present ever–to hit my goal.
I have never felt so empowered or accomplished in my life. It is a truly awesome feeling.
Here are a few things I’ve noticed more and more lately as I march toward goal.
Posted in big things, celebrations, choices, exercise, goals, la guerra, oh behave!, post-op, reflections, success, the sleeve, vsg, weight loss surgery, werk!
Tagged appearance, benefits of wls, compliments, empowerment, exercise, goals, I work out, I'm not average, la guerra, little celebrations, loose skin, NSV's, obsess much?, post-op eating, post-op life, reactions to WLS, reflections, she's got skillz, shit is hard, sleeve gastrectomy, sorry for sleeve rocking, success, the sleeve, VSG, vsg realness, werk!, what's up doc?, WLS, workin' on my fitness
This week’s progress: great! I added both calories and activity, and it gave me the result I was after so I will continue this behavior until it doesn’t give me the result I want.
Continue reading
Posted in celebrations, challenges, choices, exercise, goals, head trips, la guerra, NSV's, oh behave!, post-op, progreso, success, the sleeve, vsg, weight loss surgery
Tagged aspiring runner, challenges, exercise, goals, la guerra, little celebrations, loose skin, NSV's, planning for success, post-op eating, post-op life, progreso, progress report, she's got skillz, sleeve gastrectomy, sorry for sleeve rocking, success, the body is a funny thing, the sleeve, things of win and awesome, VSG, vsg realness, what's up doc?, WLS, workin' on my fitness
First, I apologize for the sporadic posting this week. Spring semester is always busy for me, so my posts may start becoming more and more spread out as we inch closer to the end of the school year.
#fatgirlslimproblem 1: Work is burying me right now, and I’ve taken on extra work outside of school to make ends meet. This post-op life is costing so much more than I imagined it would: therapy costs, doctors’ visits, labs, clothing…all of it is more than I can handle financially. And as my salary hasn’t increased to keep up with the cost of living much less the costs of all the stuff previously mentioned, working a second and third job is what is needed. My flexible spending money is gone–I blew through all $2000 of it by January 1 (our plan year starts September 1), so this plan year has been a very expensive one. While my insurance premium cost dropped, my deductible doubled (from $1200 to $2400) as did my out of pocket max (from $2400 to $4800), so my healthcare costs have been much, much higher than they were last year.
What really sucks? We don’t have benefits election until AUGUST this year. Why? Because TRS can’t figure out what they want the insurance rates to be. So now I won’t be able to appropriately figure out how much to set aside for health care costs for next year. Bastards.
So when does our plan year start over again? SEPTEMBER 1.
Thanks, BCBSTX TRS-ActiveCare, you suck. I’ll continue working 3 jobs just to pay for health care. UGH.
#fatgirlslimproblem 2: Today this happened. Continue reading
Posted in challenges, daily bites, eating, la guerra, NSV's, post-op, reflections, self-image, the body is a funny thing, the sleeve, vsg, weight loss surgery
Tagged being authentic, being real, challenges, daily bites, eating, fatgirlslimproblems, health care costs, la guerra, loose skin, NSVs, post-op eating, post-op life, reflections, self-image, sleeve gastrectomy, the sleeve, VSG, vsg realness, WLS, work in progress
Another NSV:
I finally broke down and bought a ring guard for my diamond. I had to tighten it up some more when I got home. I need another one for my wedding band too.
Yesterday marked four months since I had my sleeve surgery. In the past four months, I have:
I have accomplished more than I expected I would, and more than I thought was possible.
Posted in daily bites, eating, NSV's, planning, post-op, success, vsg, weight loss surgery
Tagged daily bites, data, eating, hair loss, loose skin, NSVs, planning for success, post-op eating, post-op life, reflections, sleeve gastrectomy, sorry for sleeve rocking, VSG, vsg realness, WLS
La Guerra de La Gorda 