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Anniversary

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My husband and I went to the hospital where I had my surgery last year and tried to recreate the photograph we took before I went in for my surgery. I didn’t keep the outfit I wore to the hospital, so I chose something that was pretty darn close.

Today is a pretty important day in my life.  A year ago at this time, I was recovering from my sleeve surgery.

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Post-Op Week 48 Progress Report: In Which I am Too Small For Lane Bryant

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Not surprised by this week’s progress, as it follows the pattern I have come to know over the last few months.  I have made a few tweaks to my program in the past two weeks and I think they are paying off.  Continue reading

You Know You’ve Lost a Lot of Weight When…

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  • People continually tell you that you are “wasting away to nothing.”
  • You are told pretty much every day that you look great.  Especially by people who didn’t pay you much attention before.
  • Your husband has a tough time picking you out of a crowd because now you look like everyone else.
  • You have to work even harder at the gym to achieve the same burn that you got when you were 50 pounds heavier.
  • Men who are not your husband check you out.
  • Men who are not your husband open doors for you.
  • You now wear a smaller bra than you wore when you first started wearing them as a kid.
  • You complain about your clothes not fitting properly now, not because they’re too small, but because they’re too big.
  • You find that getting dressed every day is a challenge only because you now own so many cute clothes that it’s hard to pick which outfit to wear.

And finally…you know you’ve lost a lot of weight when:

  • Your own doctors don’t recognize you.  Today on the way to my support group meeting, I ran into the doctor who did my last two followup appointments, and he flat out did not recognize me.  He gushed about how great I looked and couldn’t stop saying WOW.  Before we parted ways, he asked me how much I’d lost to date, and I told him and he pumped his fist in the air.  I told him I’d see him in July at my 1-year follow up.

Hopefully by then I’ll have at least another 10 pounds off and be inching my way down to my goal.  I’m already at 70% EWL and aiming for 90%.  To get to 90%, I need to lose 50 more pounds, which puts me squarely in my desired weight range.

Summer is coming, and this will be the summer of kicking ass.

#transformationtuesday

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Left (2010) Right (2014)
Heaviest weight 210 pounds lighter
Wearing a tight pair of jorts, size 32W Wearing a well-fitting pair of khaki shorts in size 18W
Wearing a tight t-shirt, size 4x (30-32W) Wearing a loose t-shirt, 1X (14-16W)
Hypertensive diabetic Nope!
Aching lower back Nope!
Crunchy knees Nope!
Aching knees Only when it’s humid out.
Resting HR:  96 bpm Resting HR:  58 bpm
Stairs?  What are those? Stairs?  No problem!
Run?  Are you f’n kidding me? Run?  Ok, sure.  But only if I feel like it, or I’m being chased.
Average recumbent bike ride:  5 minutes Average recumbent bike ride:  45-50 minutes
Sat on lab stool to teach all day long. Stands up nearly all day to teach classes.  Sits only when tired.
Mindless eater. Mindful eater.
Physically miserable. Most days, physically good.  Some days achy, but this is because weight is shifting around.
Self-critical and self-loathing. Gentler, kinder to myself.  More forgiving.  Learning to love the me I have always been. 🙂

10 Months Post-Op: A Few Quick Observations

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It was superhero day at school, so I decided to rock my Super MadMen shirt.

As of yesterday, I hit the 10 months post-op mark.  As is custom on the 8th of each month, I stepped onto the scale to see what I weighed so I could compare it to what I weighed the day I had surgery.

Since my surgery, I’ve lost 131 pounds.  Including what I lost pre-op, I’ve lost 167 pounds.

I am 9 pounds from my surgeon’s goal weight for me.  His goal for me is based on 70% EWL.  I told him last year at my consult (which was about this time of year) that I was not content with “average” and that 70% wasn’t good enough.

So I set my personal goal 50 pounds lower than his.

I am 59 pounds from my goal. 

It doesn’t even seem real.  Seriously, pinch me, because I must be dreaming!

It does, however, seem possible.  Perhaps within the next 7 months, even.  That’d be the best Christmas present ever–to hit my goal.

I have never felt so empowered or accomplished in my life.  It is a truly awesome feeling.

Here are a few things I’ve noticed more and more lately as I march toward goal.

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Flashback Friday

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The year was 2006.  I went to my first AP Reading at the University of Nebraska as a rookie reader.  This was also the last year we read in Lincoln.  I wanted a shirt as a souvenir and memento of my experience there so I bought this at the bookstore on campus.  It was the biggest shirt they had–a 3X.  It was tight and uncomfortable, and after I bought it I didn’t wear it for a long, long time. 

Until recently.

Now it fits like a dress and I use it as a workout shirt because it’s too big to wear otherwise.  When I go back to the AP Reading this year, you bet your ass I’ll be taking this shirt with me to work out in.

I am now down to an 18 in pants and a 14-18 in tops, depending on who makes them and whether or not they are button down or knit.  I won’t lie, I still see a 440 pound woman, still feel like one most days, and still negotiate space like one.  When will I get past this?  I know Dr. A said that the brain takes so long to catch up to the body, but it’s nearly been a year and I’m still lagging behind mentally on my self-image.

I mixed up my cardio tonight:  15 minutes riding intervals on the recumbent bike, followed by 15 minutes on the elliptical, then 10 minutes on the dreadmill to cool down.  I had never tried the elliptical before and thought I’d give it a try to give myself a change of pace.  I dig it.  I’ll be using it again, perhaps tomorrow evening.  I need to drag my ass to the gym more and thankfully that things are starting to slow down at school, perhaps I can do that.

More later…prepping for teaching a workshop tomorrow and I need to finalize some last minute things.

Post-Op Week 40 Progress Report: New Goals and A Tiny Pony

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This week’s progress was unexpectedly great.  I dropped a huge amount of weight, which I was not expecting to do given that I was retaining water all week long.  I skipped the gym this week, which happened because I wasn’t feelin’ it, and had a lot going on at work.  Instead, I did a lot of sitting on the balance ball while watching tv/working at my desk here at home.  Basically, if I was going to sit for more than 30 minutes, I made myself sit on the ball and try to stay on in an upright position.  It must have worked!  I am now only 13 pounds from my surgeon’s goal, which I am positive I can hit before school is out in June.  I am amazed that I am within striking distance of Dr. Nicholson’s expectation.  By the time my one-year follow-up appointment in July happens, I fully expect to have exceeded his expectation for my weight loss.

It should also be noted that in this picture, I am wearing smaller shorts and a smaller shirt.

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