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Random: Who Are You and Bariatric Snacks


  • Giant workout shirt:  check
  • Compression capris:  check
  • Ponytail pulled through a ballcap:  check
  • iPod loaded with curated workout playlists:  check
  • Knee brace, the fitness accessory all active middle-aged women are sporting this season:  check
  • Fitness monitoring gadgets (Fitbit and HRM):  check
  • Liter bottle of water, to be downed during 70 minute workout:  check
  • Inner turmoil and confusion about who this woman is, because it doesn’t look like me:  check

I swear, looking at this picture of me, I really don’t look like me.  I look at it and I can’t believe that I inhabit the body in the photo above.  I’m trying hard to get acquainted with the woman whose body I have come to inhabit, and it’s tough.  I have enjoyed getting to dress her, but getting to know her…that’s a totally different proposition altogether and a tougher task.

On an unrelated note…

There is a lady in the weekly weight loss support group I attend that complains about how she’s always hungry.  So she tells us she goes to the kitchen and gets a “bariatric snack.”  When pressed to describe what the “bariatric snack” is, she tells us it’s a bag of chips that are marketed as some sort of snack food appropriate for WLS patients.

Now here you see 3 ounces of roasted boneless skinless chicken breast.  THIS is a “bariatric snack,” not a damn bag of artificially created protein chips.  When you eat real food, you stay satisfied longer, and hey.. this only has one ingredient: chicken.


A REAL bariatric snack: roast chicken.



Identity Crisis

At what point does your weight start defining you?

At what point does your weight stop defining you?

This week in therapy, I talked about how I felt as though I never let my weight define me in the first place.

My family did that for me.

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Post-Op Week 17 Progress Report and Bitten by the Running Bug

This week’s loss was a small one, but a loss is a loss, right?


My ankles are a bit puffy in this picture because we took the picture after we got home from our road trip.  I’d been in the car for a little over 4 hours, and you know being stationary + salty food = cankles.

I’m not thrilled that I’m developing a turkey wattle under my chin–how apropos since it’s November and all.  But I’m starting to see a LOT of loose skin all over (arms, legs) that needs tightening.  Time to start lifting weights I suppose.  Now how to fit it into my schedule is the question.  I also need a haircut in a bad way, but I’m terrified of getting it cut because I’m losing hair by the handful and have been for the past month now.  I hope this hair loss slows down and stops soon because I already had thinning hair to start with and this is NOT HELPING.  Continue reading