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Oh, You Know, It’s The “Two Legs in One Leg of the Pants” Photo. NBD.

So this happened.

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Ignore my Mexi-fro. It was really humid here today as it rained all morning, and my hair needs to be cut.

These are the shorts I wore at my heaviest weight.  And they were tight then.

I’d purposely kept them when I started this path because I wanted a stark reminder of where I started.  I never wanted to forget where I came from.

Tonight I got to thinking, I wonder if I can do that thing where you put both legs inside the one leg of a pair of pants?  So I dug up the shorts, and gave it a try.

I felt the catch in my throat when I was able to pull the single leg up over both my thighs.  I thought, no way…holy shit, I was this big?  What in the hell?  How?

I didn’t think I’d ever be able to do this.

Yet here I am:  two legs in one pants leg.  With room.

54 pounds from my goal and chugging toward maintenance.

I got this.

 

The Gift That Keeps on Giving

I welcomed my 41st year of life today with open arms.

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Last year at this time, I celebrated my 40th in New Orleans at Commander’s Palace, one of my absolute favorite places in the world to dine.  After a brunch of hibiscus martinis and sugarcane syrup lacquered boudin stuffed quail, I spent the day with my husband at the casino and walking along Canal Street.

In pain.  And miserable.

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Post-Op Week 35 Progress Report: The Bottomless Pit Edition

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I haven’t been very good about writing here every day.  Things in my world have been harried lately, and I’m not feeling good about it.  This week’s progress isn’t progress at all–it’s a big step back.
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#overit

I’m in desperate need of a week off.

But Spring Break is still a week away for me.

I need the time off to recharge and rest, to relax and not think about all the life stuff swirling around me at the moment.

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Identity Crisis

At what point does your weight start defining you?

At what point does your weight stop defining you?

This week in therapy, I talked about how I felt as though I never let my weight define me in the first place.

My family did that for me.

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Just As I Suspected

These days, when a conversation begins with “You are looking good,” I never expect it to be followed by “Everyone was talking about you yesterday!”

But I suppose that when folks don’t see you in a while and you’ve lost nearly 150 pounds, it shouldn’t be a surprise.

This is also why a school is the worst place to keep anything on the down low.
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Post-Op Week 29 Progress Report

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No change this week.  I suppose I should be grateful that there wasn’t a gain, but this doesn’t reduce my frustration level any.  If anything, this week’s lack of forward progress frustrates me even more.

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Does Your Food Love You As Much As You Love It?

There is something that’s been eating away at me for a couple of weeks that I finally decided I needed to write about.

One of the things that you come to realize as a WLS patient is that head hunger is a very, very real thing and that it is something you have to fight Every. Single. Day.

Folks who have never had food issues don’t understand this.

My head hunger is something I’ve been fighting with over the past few weeks.

And right now, I think I’m winning.  Let me explain.

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