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Daily Bites and Tuesday’s Tiny Epiphanies

Here’s what I ate today:

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Today’s food choices, from upper right: scrambled egg with ham and cheese; Trader Joe’s turkey jerky; Sargento reduced fat cheddar cheese stick; barbecued boneless skinless chicken thigh with green beans and bacon; almond butter and saltine crackers; multivitamin and calcium supplements x2. Not pictured: Boar’s Head maple glazed chicken breast slices.

A few small realizations I had during the course of the day:

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Tuesday Tidbits and Daily Bites

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Today’s food choices, from upper left: multivitamin and calcium supplements x2; Italian sausage with peppers and onions in marinara; Trader Joe’s dark chocolate nibs (a great way to satisfy a chocolate craving–6-8 pieces does it for me); green chile chicken casserole; rare deli sliced roast beef and a cheese stick (I didn’t have a good photo of the two things together so I reused this one); Trader Joe’s turkey jerky; barbecue chicken drumstick with mashed potatoes (Trader Joe’s has these awesome frozen ones that are easy to measure–they’re little nuggets!).

A few things:

  • Carrying my school bag this afternoon to my car, I realized just how heavy it was–and it wasn’t even full.  I then realized that I used to carry that weight ON MY BODY.  It was a great realization to have.  Better still?  I will never have to carry that weight on my body EVER AGAIN.
  • Silencing the Fat Girl is getting easier as the weeks go by.  I have finally determined that the “my way or the highway” attitude Thinner Girl is exerting is probably what is keeping Fat Girl from sabotaging Thinner Girl’s efforts at success.  That, plus a little forgiveness and education haven’t hurt either.  She hasn’t reared her head lately but I know there will be opportunities for her to do so.  Planning and preparation have been my two biggest tools in the fight against her desires to derail my progress.  I just hope I don’t get bored with either of them.
  • I feel really awesome about myself when I hit 7,000 steps.  It helps that my Fitbit Flex tells me when I’m close, and then it vibrates all crazy-like and lights up when I do hit that goal.  I’m hopeful I can hit it again the remaining days this week.
  • I have noticed that I get around much faster than before.
  • I am noticing that my hair is much more wavy than it was before surgery.  I am also noticing that it comes out pretty readily.  I knew that would happen, so I’m not too worried about it.
  • My maxi dresses are too long for me now.  Before, they hung over my belly and didn’t drag the ground.  Now, I trip on the hems.  Perhaps it is time for a visit to a tailor who can work with the fabrics they are made out of so I don’t continue to step on the hems and ruin them.
  • I can hug my husband so much easier now.  We both stand up so much straighter now when we do.  We had the realization last week that between the two of us, we have lost an adult woman.  By the time we both reach our individual goals, we will have lost the equivalent to a family of 4–two adults and two children.  Mind.  Truly.  BLOWN.

The Second Half of 40

Two months ago today, I started the march toward better health with day one of what proved to be the toughest part of this path–the pre-op diet.

I won’t lie; there were times during that three-week process that I did not think I’d make it.  There were so many times I wanted to just throw my hands up and bury my face in a basket of chips and salsa (my poison of choice) and say “fuck this, I can’t do it.”  I am pretty sure that was The Fat Girl stomping her foot because she was not getting her way.

But a smaller, more persistent voice inside me spoke loudly and persuaded Fat Girl that it would be worth it in the end.  I think this was Thinner Girl asserting her needs and desires.  I’m glad her voice was louder and assertive, because every moment of this journey since then has been well worth the work, pain, and tears I’ve shed so far.

Today, I am enjoying not having to take my diabetes medication.  I am thrilled that the dose of my BP medicine has been cut by half.  I am down two clothes sizes and nearly 30 inches all over.  As I approach my 6 weeks’ check-up this week, I am eager to see what the next two months brings me since I’ll be able to get to the gym and start accelerating this process along some.

The first half of my 40th year has been a formative learning experience. Here’s to hoping the second half is transformative.

31 Days

Today’s food choices:

Today's food choices, clockwise from upper left:  multivitamin and calcium supplements x2; Panera's vegetarian black bean soup; Syntrax Matrix mint cookie protein powder; Genghis Grill lettuce wraps filling; Sargento 2% milk cheddar cheese stick; homemade lettuce wrap filling.

Today’s food choices, clockwise from upper left: multivitamin and calcium supplements x2; Panera’s vegetarian black bean soup; Syntrax Matrix mint cookie protein powder; Genghis Grill lettuce wraps filling; Sargento 2% milk cheddar cheese stick; homemade lettuce wrap filling.

I went to lunch this afternoon at Panera where I met a friend to talk about school stuff.  Panera is an easy choice because I know what’s on the menu that’s good for me to have and that has some pretty nutrient-dense choices.  I ordered a cup of the black bean soup and ate about a third of the cup.  If you’ve ever been to a Panera, then you know they serve their soups and salads with a half a mini baguette.  It smelled fantastic, but I ignored it sitting there on the plate they brought my soup on.  I ate my soup, enjoyed it and boxed the rest up for home.  I’ll probably have it for breakfast in the morning with a little cheese.  Or I might scramble an egg and have a spoonful of beans mixed in with it…hmmmm, the possibilities!

Today, I am officially one month out of surgery.  And what a month it has been!

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Six Weeks

Six weeks from now, I’ll be taking the most important step to prolonging my life.

Six weeks from now, I’ll be getting a tool that will help me accomplish something I’ve never been able to do:  lose and subsequently keep off my excess weight.

Six weeks from now, I’ll have a tool that will allow me to leverage what I know about healthy eating and exercise to my advantage.

Six weeks from this moment, I will be minus 80% of my stomach.

And I couldn’t be more excited.