Nearly as fast as I put on the weight I gained over the holidays, I lost it. Then regained it. Then lost it again. This rollercoaster ride my body’s taking me on is frustrating at most, but is what I suppose maintenance is at best. What I need to grapple with is this: am I ready to be here?
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So this happened.
Ignore my Mexi-fro. It was really humid here today as it rained all morning, and my hair needs to be cut.
These are the shorts I wore at my heaviest weight. And they were tight then.
I’d purposely kept them when I started this path because I wanted a stark reminder of where I started. I never wanted to forget where I came from.
Tonight I got to thinking, I wonder if I can do that thing where you put both legs inside the one leg of a pair of pants? So I dug up the shorts, and gave it a try.
I felt the catch in my throat when I was able to pull the single leg up over both my thighs. I thought, no way…holy shit, I was this big? What in the hell? How?
I didn’t think I’d ever be able to do this.
Yet here I am: two legs in one pants leg. With room.
54 pounds from my goal and chugging toward maintenance.
I got this.
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Two pretty awesome things happened to me today.
- I was approached to run for secretary of my Rotary Club, as we have elections soon. I said yes.
- I ran briefly, albeit slowly and in the wrong kind of shoes. But I ran. And my knees didn’t cry out for mercy when I did it.
The possibility that lies in both of these things is exciting to me. I won’t lie, I am more excited about the second than the first. I enjoy being a leader, don’t get me wrong, but the time commitment is a concern.
But the running!
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There have been multiple times in the past few days when I have just wanted to lay down and quit. This has not been an easy row to hoe, that’s for sure.
I had been told by several people that the pre-op phase of this process was the most difficult, and now I know exactly what they meant.
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