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Post-Op Week 91: What I Deserve

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Funerals are a hell of a way to start a week.  Mourning + ovulation + work stress + general IDGAFery = up this week.  Thankfully, this week does not look to be terribly stressful, especially as side projects wind down and I can finally get back to the business of taking care of myself the way I deserve to.

This just keeping my head above water business isn’t cutting it, and I’m tired of just getting by.  That’s what it feels like I’ve done this year so far.  I deserve so much more than just getting by.  I don’t “just get by” in other areas of my life, so why when it comes to me is it acceptable?

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Post-Op Week 90: On The Road

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I’m late with this week’s post but life happens.  I got notification earlier in the week that one of my cousins had passed away, and the funeral services were this weekend, finishing up today with the funeral Mass.  So I’ve been a bit preoccupied as we had to travel to be with family, which was far more important than updating this thing.

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Post-Op Week 89: Lessons From the Reset

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Well, the reset got me back down to my pre-Christmas weight, which is good.  I had to relearn the things I learned during that pre-op period, which were tough.  My doctor’s plan was very strict as pre-op plans go, so I knew the week was going to be hard.

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Post-Op Week 88: A Confession

Forgive me, body, for I have sinned.  A lot.  So I’m starting over.

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Post-Op Week 86: Waving the White Flag, For Now

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I think my doctors were right.  The weight range I’m in now is probably a good weight for me.  For the past 3 months, I have bounced back and forth, up and down around the same weight on the scale, and I am discouraged.  I feel like I have disappointed myself.  I’m not giving up this fight, but I’m not giving it my best, and I know it.

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Post-Op Week 83: Tired and In Need of a Reset

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Well, there went all the progress I made in January.  My face here says it all.  I’m frustrated.

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Post-Op Week 82 Progress Report: Even Steven

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No change this week, and I am more than good with that.  This past week was a bit rough, and I fully expected to be up a lot this week as my week saw me eating so many things I don’t normally eat.  Cookies, brownies…my students brought these things in as part of a class project and I was not strong enough to say no to any of them until the end of the week when I was just flat tired of eating them.  I didn’t want the taste of them in my mouth, and I didn’t like the way they made me feel.  So the fact that the scale didn’t budge this week is actually a relief to me.  It could have been much, much worse.
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Post-Op Week 81 Progress Report

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Finally the scale is creeping downward and the holiday regain is about gone!  I’m hoping this continues.   Still struggling to get motivated to exercise though.  Perhaps I should focus on getting more sleep first, because the lack of sleep is hurting my want to exercise.  When I am tired, the last thing I want to do is work out.  I know I’m not sleeping enough but I have so many things I’m juggling right now that it’s hard to get them all done in the 24 hours I am given each day.

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Post-Op Week 80: Nut Up or Shut Up

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Not surprised by this week’s progress since I was retaining water all week which always happens during my cycle.  The water retention stops when the crimson tide rolls in (ha!), and so does the desire to eat everything that isn’t nailed down.  So this week should be business as usual.

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Post-Op Week 79 Progress Report: It’s Not All Sunshine and Roses, Y’all

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First week back at it and not too shabby, considering that I am now 18 months post-op.  If I can lose this amount or more each week, I will see my goal weight by Christmas.  I’m definitely learning patience right now!

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