The biology nerd in me did some digging into my 23andMe data. Here’s what I learned about the snps in my FTO gene. Plain and simple: I have the mutation in this one snp that predisposes me to both severe obesity and type 2 diabetes. Awesome.
I’m fighting a battle that I will never truly win, and that I’m going to be stuck fighting the rest of my life. I’ve done a shitty job of taking care of myself for the past 8 months. I acknowledge this. I have finally gotten to the point where I am tired of my own bullshit, and I’m tired of letting Fat Girl win. I’m ready to get me back to feeling good and healthy (despite all my orthopedic maladies, two of whichhave popped up since my surgery 2 years ago).
I return home next week, and I’ve got a plan in place to reclaim my health. I owe it to me to put Fat Girl in her place and make her see that once and for all, I deserve to be healthy, happy, and comfortable in my own skin.
The smile is deceptive. Happy but not with how I look.
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This is a quickie update as I have been traveling for work all weekend and am only home for a few hours before jetting off (literally) to New Orleans on another work-related trip.
I did not weigh today or take pictures because I was traveling, but I will do both tomorrow morning before I head out. I did make it a point to go walking yesterday while we were gone so I did squeeze in nearly 5 miles of walking.
The plan this week is to get to the gym to do a little weightlifting and bike riding, and maybe some swimming. It’s still not warm enough outside for me to really want to swim, but the light at the end of the tunnel is this: spring is a few short days away!
Birthday celebration in New Orleans tomorrow night, again on Tuesday (when my birthday ACTUALLY is), and for the rest of the week because I celebrate ALL WEEK long. I’m treating this week as vacation time, because it is. So I’m reverting to how I tracked when I was in New Orleans for Thanksgiving: keeping portions sensible and making sure I log exercise, vitamins and water. Then it’s back to the grind next Monday once my schedule returns to the real world.
Photo update tomorrow. I’m considering weighing in monthly now as I’m trying to maintain. I’ll still track weight weekly but I think I will only report monthly. Not sure what I’m going to do but I’ll figure it out. More later…work to get done before hitting the sack.
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No change this week, and I am more than good with that. This past week was a bit rough, and I fully expected to be up a lot this week as my week saw me eating so many things I don’t normally eat. Cookies, brownies…my students brought these things in as part of a class project and I was not strong enough to say no to any of them until the end of the week when I was just flat tired of eating them. I didn’t want the taste of them in my mouth, and I didn’t like the way they made me feel. So the fact that the scale didn’t budge this week is actually a relief to me. It could have been much, much worse.
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And here we go again with the weight loss cha-cha. It doesn’t help that I’m retaining water right now (thanks, hormones) and that I want to eat everything that isn’t nailed down.
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Today’s progress report is going to be a quick one since I’m currently buried in work from both school and the Texas Education Agency (TEA).
This week finally saw the scale move in the downward direction for the first time in about 3 weeks. I can’t even tell y’all how exciting it was to see the scale dip down this morning when I stepped on it. I didn’t care how much it went down so long as it was down.
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This post is going to be a fast one, as I’m slowly excavating myself from under a pile of grading. It is the end of the semester, and grades are due tomorrow at 4, so I’ve been grading like a mofo every night this week. Progress is slow, because it’s all essay reading. But I haven’t forgotten about the blog!
In the next few days, I will:
- Write a piece on mindful eating. We had a great session about it in group tonight that I think is worth sharing.
- Write a review of Dr. Nicholson’s new book, Weight Loss Surgery: The Real Skinny. Outstanding resource for those who have had or who are contemplating WLS.
- Comment on how I navigated a week’s worth of food celebrations and possible poor choices. Hint: I did pretty well.
- Compile a post that will be helpful to those who are early on in the process of pursuing bariatric surgery.
- Write a third installment of “Things I Wish My Doctor Had Told Me” since I’m approaching my 6-month surgiversary.
- Catch up on my Daily Bites series. I know some of my readers use the photo collages to help them see that eating post-op doesn’t have to be boring. I’ve snapped photos but haven’t had time to organize them. Thankfully, I have MyFitnessPal records to help me there!
And now I return to the kitchen table to plow through the last set of essays to grade until bedtime, and then sleep…sweet, sweet sleep. Until tomorrow…
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