- People continually tell you that you are “wasting away to nothing.”
- You are told pretty much every day that you look great. Especially by people who didn’t pay you much attention before.
- Your husband has a tough time picking you out of a crowd because now you look like everyone else.
- You have to work even harder at the gym to achieve the same burn that you got when you were 50 pounds heavier.
- Men who are not your husband check you out.
- Men who are not your husband open doors for you.
- You now wear a smaller bra than you wore when you first started wearing them as a kid.
- You complain about your clothes not fitting properly now, not because they’re too small, but because they’re too big.
- You find that getting dressed every day is a challenge only because you now own so many cute clothes that it’s hard to pick which outfit to wear.
And finally…you know you’ve lost a lot of weight when:
- Your own doctors don’t recognize you. Today on the way to my support group meeting, I ran into the doctor who did my last two followup appointments, and he flat out did not recognize me. He gushed about how great I looked and couldn’t stop saying WOW. Before we parted ways, he asked me how much I’d lost to date, and I told him and he pumped his fist in the air. I told him I’d see him in July at my 1-year follow up.
Hopefully by then I’ll have at least another 10 pounds off and be inching my way down to my goal. I’m already at 70% EWL and aiming for 90%. To get to 90%, I need to lose 50 more pounds, which puts me squarely in my desired weight range.
Summer is coming, and this will be the summer of kicking ass.
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Finally got the results of my gallbladder ultrasound today.
No stones, no sludge, no inflammation, so no surgery. At least not now.
But I was told I have a small polyp in my gallbladder. Nothing to worry about, I was told.
I did ask that in the event I had to have my gallbladder out, who would do my surgery. I was told that any of the surgeons in my doctor’s practice could do it. I said, good because I like you guys. And I do–I’m quite fond of all the doctors in my surgeon’s practice.
So that’s the one piece of good news I’ve received in the past few days. I have a visitation and funeral to attend this week for a former student who was killed last Friday, and I’m still awaiting word on when a memorial service will be held for my father’s wife, who lost her battle with cancer last Wednesday. I also have a banquet tomorrow night for a club I sponsor at school, which is a desserts party. I’ve already planned how I’m going to handle it: eat dinner right before so I’m not tempted to graze on the cupcakes, cookies and cake balls that I know will be there. I am going to have one cupcake though, and I am going to make sure I walk at least 7500 steps during the day. I’ve got this.
The overarching goal this week is to not eat all the feels. I’m trying super hard to avoid stress eating, which is one of my downfalls. I’m 12 pounds from Dr. Nicholson’s expectation for my weight loss. I’d love to hit that before I head to Kansas City in June. I know I’ll get there before I see him for my 1-year post-op in July, but I’d like to be well past his goal for me by the time I see him on July 10.
I’ve got this.
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First, this is me in the first goal dress I ever bought myself, when I was trying to get my weight down from nearly 440 pounds.
200 pounds later, I can wear this without any problems. I’ll actually have to have the bodice taken in a little bit pretty soon.
-200 pounds later.
Today I had a 9-month follow-up appointment.
It’s a good thing, too.
As I was talking with the PA about how I’d been feeling, I was having the same abdominal pains I’d had earlier in the week: dull, intermittent pain under my ribcage on my right side.
He said, “It’s good that you are here. Let me go get the doctor.”
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Yesterday marked 9 months post-op for me. I began the day by stepping on the scale to mark my weight since I collect data on the 8th of every month.
I stepped on the scale, off and on, like I always do, because I don’t believe the number I see every week.
When I finally stepped on for the final time, the scale settled at a number I’d hoped to see by the time this month rolled around.
As of yesterday, I officially weigh
200 pounds less
than my heaviest recorded weight.
I did not ever think I would see this day. But it is here. And it is glorious.
I have a 9-month follow up appointment tomorrow. I plan to mark the occasion as I’ve marked all my other surgeon’s appointments: by wearing a black and white dress. I’ll be wearing the dress I bought 2 years ago that I’d intended as a “goal dress” during my last bout of weight loss.
Now, I’ve reached that goal (exceeded it, actually) and will be wearing it for my appointment.
Then I’ll take it to the tailor over the weekend and have it taken in, along with a bunch of my other professional clothes which are a wee bit large for me now.
It’s a good week to be me.
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is how I feel as of late.
There is simply so much going on in my life both at work and at home, and I’m trying to juggle both of those worlds while trying to keep myself afloat and it’s hard.
I got a call from my PCP’s office today. She wants to discuss my recent bloodwork with me. Why do I get the feeling that my liver enzymes were high again? I mean, that’s the reason I had to go back to have the test redone in the first place.
This means I will have to go in for an ultrasound on my gallbladder to make sure there aren’t any stones. She said she’d be obligated to send me for one.
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One year ago today, I weighed around 400 pounds.
One year ago today, I attended a seminar to learn more about WLS and to meet a potential candidate to perform the surgery I’d already decided I would have during the summertime.
It was at that seminar that I met Dr. Nick Nicholson, my surgeon. Continue reading
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There is something that’s been eating away at me for a couple of weeks that I finally decided I needed to write about.
One of the things that you come to realize as a WLS patient is that head hunger is a very, very real thing and that it is something you have to fight Every. Single. Day.
Folks who have never had food issues don’t understand this.
My head hunger is something I’ve been fighting with over the past few weeks.
And right now, I think I’m winning. Let me explain.
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