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#overit

I’m in desperate need of a week off.

But Spring Break is still a week away for me.

I need the time off to recharge and rest, to relax and not think about all the life stuff swirling around me at the moment.

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“Fat” Clothes

Today was a snow day for us, as sleet fell nearly all day yesterday and temps didn’t get out of the 20’s all day.  This made for nearly an inch of ice on the ground and roads, making it dangerous for anyone to drive, much less kids and school buses.  So no school today.

I slept in a little, had a leisurely breakfast, and then puttered around a bit.  I made a jambalaya for the crockpot (which turned out awesome–I will share the recipe later in the week), and did a little grading (not as much as I’d liked, but some is better than none).  I did a little reading on the OH VSG boards, and saw that someone who was pre-op had asked a question about how folks have dealt with their clothing sizes changing constantly post-op.  Several people had offered her suggestions about how to handle the rapidly changing sizes she’ll be dealing with, many of which were good.

Then midway through the thread she asked the question,

What do you do with your fat clothes?

I know she was referring to plus-sized clothing.  Certainly she meant “one’s larger clothes.”  Certainly.  She had to be.

But I am pretty sure she didn’t mean it that way.

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Saturday in Photos

Today was a good day.  I’ll show you in pictures.

First, I crossed the 150 pounds lost mark:

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Left: me, minus 154 pounds. This is what I’ve lost since June 2013, when I began pre-op dieting. Right: me, minus 195 pounds–what I’m down from my heaviest recorded weight.

I’m nearly down 200 from my highest weight ever. I am now at the weight that it seems most folks who have the sleeve START at when they have surgery. This is both fantastic to me and distressing at the same time. Fantastic because I never imagined I’d be in this weight range, but distressing because I feel like I still have so much more to go to get to my goal.  I am feeling bones in places I have never felt them before, and seeing a body shape that I didn’t realize I had, and I’m wondering if perhaps 170 might be too thin?  I guess I won’t know until I get down under 200 pounds, but that isn’t going to happen for a while yet.

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10

Tonight I ran for 10 minutes on the treadmill.  Now, they weren’t 10 continuous minutes, but it was 10 minutes nonetheless.

10 months ago, I couldn’t have walked 10 minutes continuously without getting winded.

In 10 days, I turn 41.

When I turned 40, I couldn’t run at all.

In fact, there were a lot of things I couldn’t do when I turned 40 that I can do now. Running is one of them.

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Identity Crisis

At what point does your weight start defining you?

At what point does your weight stop defining you?

This week in therapy, I talked about how I felt as though I never let my weight define me in the first place.

My family did that for me.

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Monday Musings: 3.5 mph, Sleep, Perchance to Dream

is how fast I ran on the treadmill tonight.

Mind you, I only ran for a little over 5 minutes of my 22 minutes on the damned thing, but I ran.  And they weren’t 5 continuous minutes of running–I walk really fast, and alternate a few minutes of walking really fast with a minute or so of running.   Tonight, I ran faster than I’ve been able to, which is an accomplishment for this running newbie.  I need to work on duration rather than speed, though.  It’s hard not to want to run fast when this comes on my playlist, though:

When I listen to it, my pace is slow and then builds up.  I’d eventually like to be able to run for the duration of the entire song.  I got halfway through my playlist, about a mile in, and then I quit.  I rode the bike for the next 30 minutes of my workout.

I would have run more had I not been exhausted.

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FATigue

Behavioral fatigue, I has it.

Behavioral fatigue is the official term for that time when you get tired of implementing a behavior so you start to slack off a little because you think, “Oh, but I’ve been doing this for so long and I’m just tired of it.”

But in all reality, it hasn’t been all that long.  It’s only been 8 months (including the time when I began the pre-op diet).

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