Nearly as fast as I put on the weight I gained over the holidays, I lost it. Then regained it. Then lost it again. This rollercoaster ride my body’s taking me on is frustrating at most, but is what I suppose maintenance is at best. What I need to grapple with is this: am I ready to be here?
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A haiku about this week:
Acceptance is hard
Loving yourself is harder
This journey won’t end.
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Well, there went all the progress I made in January. My face here says it all. I’m frustrated.
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No change this week, and I am more than good with that. This past week was a bit rough, and I fully expected to be up a lot this week as my week saw me eating so many things I don’t normally eat. Cookies, brownies…my students brought these things in as part of a class project and I was not strong enough to say no to any of them until the end of the week when I was just flat tired of eating them. I didn’t want the taste of them in my mouth, and I didn’t like the way they made me feel. So the fact that the scale didn’t budge this week is actually a relief to me. It could have been much, much worse.
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La Guerra de La Gorda 