Monthly Archives: May 2014

You Know You’ve Lost a Lot of Weight When…

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  • People continually tell you that you are “wasting away to nothing.”
  • You are told pretty much every day that you look great.  Especially by people who didn’t pay you much attention before.
  • Your husband has a tough time picking you out of a crowd because now you look like everyone else.
  • You have to work even harder at the gym to achieve the same burn that you got when you were 50 pounds heavier.
  • Men who are not your husband check you out.
  • Men who are not your husband open doors for you.
  • You now wear a smaller bra than you wore when you first started wearing them as a kid.
  • You complain about your clothes not fitting properly now, not because they’re too small, but because they’re too big.
  • You find that getting dressed every day is a challenge only because you now own so many cute clothes that it’s hard to pick which outfit to wear.

And finally…you know you’ve lost a lot of weight when:

  • Your own doctors don’t recognize you.  Today on the way to my support group meeting, I ran into the doctor who did my last two followup appointments, and he flat out did not recognize me.  He gushed about how great I looked and couldn’t stop saying WOW.  Before we parted ways, he asked me how much I’d lost to date, and I told him and he pumped his fist in the air.  I told him I’d see him in July at my 1-year follow up.

Hopefully by then I’ll have at least another 10 pounds off and be inching my way down to my goal.  I’m already at 70% EWL and aiming for 90%.  To get to 90%, I need to lose 50 more pounds, which puts me squarely in my desired weight range.

Summer is coming, and this will be the summer of kicking ass.

Post-Op Week 46 Progress Report: Mental and Physical Aches and Pains

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This week’s progress is good. With the adjustment in my calorie intake (I’m at 1100-1200 daily now), I’m still losing.  Slowly, but still losing.  It’s not a sprint, but a marathon, right?  I don’t care how long it takes to get there as long as I get there.

The past few weeks have been a real mental fight for me as behavioral fatigue is setting in big time.

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Post-Op Week 45 Progress Report: Complacency is a Dangerous Thing

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Slightly up on the scale this week, but not surprised.  The week following my period, I am always up a pound or two.  This is the pattern of lose-gain that I’ve noticed that my body slips into each month.  I think I may cut calories back to 1000-1100 this week since my hunger isn’t as intense the weeks after my period ends.  It’s only during that week that I feel like a bottomless pit.  I did also have a few too many calories yesterday (I was at nearly 1400) and a lot of sodium, so I know those two things didn’t help me today.

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#transformationtuesday

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Left (2010) Right (2014)
Heaviest weight 210 pounds lighter
Wearing a tight pair of jorts, size 32W Wearing a well-fitting pair of khaki shorts in size 18W
Wearing a tight t-shirt, size 4x (30-32W) Wearing a loose t-shirt, 1X (14-16W)
Hypertensive diabetic Nope!
Aching lower back Nope!
Crunchy knees Nope!
Aching knees Only when it’s humid out.
Resting HR:  96 bpm Resting HR:  58 bpm
Stairs?  What are those? Stairs?  No problem!
Run?  Are you f’n kidding me? Run?  Ok, sure.  But only if I feel like it, or I’m being chased.
Average recumbent bike ride:  5 minutes Average recumbent bike ride:  45-50 minutes
Sat on lab stool to teach all day long. Stands up nearly all day to teach classes.  Sits only when tired.
Mindless eater. Mindful eater.
Physically miserable. Most days, physically good.  Some days achy, but this is because weight is shifting around.
Self-critical and self-loathing. Gentler, kinder to myself.  More forgiving.  Learning to love the me I have always been. 🙂

Observations From the Gym and Protein Sources

A few observations while I got my fitness on tonight:

1.  Donald Sterling needs to STFU.  Don’t go talking shit about Magic Johnson and turn around in the next breath and say “I don’t talk about people, I talk about ideas.”

Yeah, like ones that should have died when slavery was abolished 150 years ago.

2.  How in the hell do people text while they use the elliptical machine?  Either they are far more skilled than I am at texting or I am working harder than they are because I am lucky if I can start the MapMyFitness app while I’m trying not to fall off the damn thing.

3.  You never know who is watching your progress.  One of the trainers pulled me aside and asked me how much weight my husband and I had lost.  She told me she noticed that both of us are significantly smaller since we started working out and that every time we come in, she noticed that we are smaller each week.  We introduced ourselves, and I told her that one day I’d be brave enough to try one of her Zumba classes.  She invited me to come to her low impact class.  I think I might give it a try.

I promised earlier that I’d make a list of the proteins I eat, in order of how well they “stick” with me–in other words, which ones provide me the most satiety for the quantity eaten.  There are some proteins that I can eat small quantities of and feel satisfied, and then there are others that it feels like I could eat endlessly and never feel satisfied.

So here’s the list.

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Post-Op Week 44 Progress Report

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Really pleased with this week’s progress!  This is proof that the road to losing weight, no matter how you do it, is not a straight line.  I plot my weight values on a spreadsheet in Excel every week, and because I am a science teacher, I generate a graph of the result.  Yeah, I know I’m a great big nerd.  It definitely has a negative slope but the line is far from straight.

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10 Months Post-Op: A Few Quick Observations

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It was superhero day at school, so I decided to rock my Super MadMen shirt.

As of yesterday, I hit the 10 months post-op mark.  As is custom on the 8th of each month, I stepped onto the scale to see what I weighed so I could compare it to what I weighed the day I had surgery.

Since my surgery, I’ve lost 131 pounds.  Including what I lost pre-op, I’ve lost 167 pounds.

I am 9 pounds from my surgeon’s goal weight for me.  His goal for me is based on 70% EWL.  I told him last year at my consult (which was about this time of year) that I was not content with “average” and that 70% wasn’t good enough.

So I set my personal goal 50 pounds lower than his.

I am 59 pounds from my goal. 

It doesn’t even seem real.  Seriously, pinch me, because I must be dreaming!

It does, however, seem possible.  Perhaps within the next 7 months, even.  That’d be the best Christmas present ever–to hit my goal.

I have never felt so empowered or accomplished in my life.  It is a truly awesome feeling.

Here are a few things I’ve noticed more and more lately as I march toward goal.

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Post-Op Week 43 Progress Report

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This week’s progress was pretty okay given that:
1. I ate more carbs than usual
2. I ate more calories than usual
3. I am retaining water (thanks, Nature, you suck)

I’m good with losing just shy of a pound–I’m just glad the scale keeps trending downward.  I’ve learned to accept this mantra lately:  I don’t care how long it takes me to get to my weight goal so long as I get there.  This process is not a race.  I am 12 pounds from my surgeon’s goal, and hopeful I will hit it before I see him again in July.  I’m going to go hard at it these next 6 weeks.  I will keep my eating the same, but my exercise has to increase.  That’s where I’ve been lacking and I know it.
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Flashback Friday

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The year was 2006.  I went to my first AP Reading at the University of Nebraska as a rookie reader.  This was also the last year we read in Lincoln.  I wanted a shirt as a souvenir and memento of my experience there so I bought this at the bookstore on campus.  It was the biggest shirt they had–a 3X.  It was tight and uncomfortable, and after I bought it I didn’t wear it for a long, long time. 

Until recently.

Now it fits like a dress and I use it as a workout shirt because it’s too big to wear otherwise.  When I go back to the AP Reading this year, you bet your ass I’ll be taking this shirt with me to work out in.

I am now down to an 18 in pants and a 14-18 in tops, depending on who makes them and whether or not they are button down or knit.  I won’t lie, I still see a 440 pound woman, still feel like one most days, and still negotiate space like one.  When will I get past this?  I know Dr. A said that the brain takes so long to catch up to the body, but it’s nearly been a year and I’m still lagging behind mentally on my self-image.

I mixed up my cardio tonight:  15 minutes riding intervals on the recumbent bike, followed by 15 minutes on the elliptical, then 10 minutes on the dreadmill to cool down.  I had never tried the elliptical before and thought I’d give it a try to give myself a change of pace.  I dig it.  I’ll be using it again, perhaps tomorrow evening.  I need to drag my ass to the gym more and thankfully that things are starting to slow down at school, perhaps I can do that.

More later…prepping for teaching a workshop tomorrow and I need to finalize some last minute things.