Monthly Archives: December 2013

Saturday Six: Things I Don’t Miss

Last week I wrote a list of the things I can do now that I couldn’t do before I had WLS.  I’m pretty sure that at some point, I’d written about what my heaviest weight was–440 pounds.  So, today’s list is:

Things I Don’t Miss About Weighing 440 Pounds
(in no particular order)

  1. Being the fattest person in any room.
  2. Not being able to sit comfortably in chairs with arms.
  3. Having to buy the most unflattering of clothes because a) they fit, and b) they would keep me from being naked in public.
  4. Not being able to walk from my car in the parking lot to pretty much anywhere without stopping to catch my breath before continuing on to my destination.  This was a pretty regular occurrence, especially at school.
  5. Wearing out my clothes and shoes really quickly.
  6. I definitely don’t miss being diabetic and hypertensive.

Today we went to the mall to do some walking after we’d retrieved our Christmas tree from storage.  After we’d walked around for about 30 minutes, I stopped in at Coldwater Creek, because they were having a mad sale–50% off everything.  I picked up a couple of sweaters for work, a dress shirt for work, and a couple of t-shirts.  The best part?

All in a size 18.

Do you know that I have never worn a clothing size that starts with a 1 in my adult life?  EVER.

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Catching Up: Daily Bites and Navigating Holiday Eating Hell

I’ve been absent from this space for more than usual this week, but as I posted yesterday, work got in the way of life.  And now…I can breathe again.  At least until January 6, when we start spring semester.

I knew going into this final week of the semester, things at work would be challenging, food-wise.  Why? you might ask yourself.

Have you ever been on a high school (or any school, for that matter) campus during the month of December?

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Work In The Way Of Life

This post is going to be a fast one, as I’m slowly excavating myself from under a pile of grading.  It is the end of the semester, and grades are due tomorrow at 4, so I’ve been grading like a mofo every night this week.  Progress is slow, because it’s all essay reading.  But I haven’t forgotten about the blog!

In the next few days, I will:

  • Write a piece on mindful eating.  We had a great session about it in group tonight that I think is worth sharing.
  • Write a review of Dr. Nicholson’s new book, Weight Loss Surgery:  The Real Skinny.  Outstanding resource for those who have had or who are contemplating WLS.
  • Comment on how I navigated a week’s worth of food celebrations and possible poor choices.  Hint:  I did pretty well.
  • Compile a post that will be helpful to those who are early on in the process of pursuing bariatric surgery.
  • Write a third installment of “Things I Wish My Doctor Had Told Me” since I’m approaching my 6-month surgiversary.
  • Catch up on my Daily Bites series.  I know some of my readers use the photo collages to help them see that eating post-op doesn’t have to be boring.  I’ve snapped photos but haven’t had time to organize them.  Thankfully, I have MyFitnessPal records to help me there!

And now I return to the kitchen table to plow through the last set of essays to grade until bedtime, and then sleep…sweet, sweet sleep.   Until tomorrow…

We Are All Works In Progress

Dear People Who Stare Disdainfully At Me Everywhere I Go:

Go ahead.  Ogle me with your eyes, mouth agape, jaw completely slack.  Go ahead and think the completely judgmental thoughts you’re thinking about me–I don’t give a flying fuck.  This has happened my whole life so I’m used to it.  Doesn’t mean I like it, but I’m used to it by now.  My skin is pretty thick.

You don’t know me, you won’t know me, and I don’t want to know you.  All I need to know about you I’ve learned from your disapproving stares.  You know the one, because you’ve perfected it by giving every fat person you see the Exact. Same. Stare.

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Post-Op Week 23 Progress Report and Less Than 100 To Goal!

Good loss this week. I think my losses are slowing down to a healthy 2-3 pounds a week as I approach the 6-months post-op mark.  I don’t care how long it takes me to get to my goal, just so long as I get there.

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Today marks another milestone: I now have less than 100 pounds to lose to get to my weight loss goal. I am less than 50 pounds from my surgeon’s goal.  It is weird to think that I could possibly be at MY goal by the summer.

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Saturday Six: Look What I Can Do edition

This post is going to be a short one so that I can get back to my grading, begun earlier in the day.

Six Things I Can Do Now That I Couldn’t Do Before Surgery
(in no particular order)

1.  Cross my legs.
2.  Run.
3.  Hug all the way around my husband.
4.  Stand up all day long to teach my classes.
5.  Walk long distances without being in excruciating pain.
6.  Look really professionally dressed for work.

Next Saturday, I’ll do a Six Things I Don’t Miss About Weighing 400+ Pounds edition.

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Today’s food choices, from upper right: Trader Joe’s crab stuffed flounder; chicken, zucchini and onion stir fry at Genghis Grill; about 2/3 of a cup of chili and 2 saltines; multivitamin and calcium supplements x2, iron and B12 supplements.

Today’s nutrition was pretty good–high protein day, with 96 grams.  Carbs were on the high end since I had some veggies but also a sugary sauce on my stir-fry.  Fat grams were lower than the last few days at 37.  I ate my lunch leftovers for dinner and have enough for tomorrow as well.

December Weight Goal Met and Unexpected NSVs

I’ve been away from the blog for a couple of days and a couple of NSVs have happened since the last time I wrote:

  • I hit my December weight goal well before the 31st–I hit it yesterday morning.  While it would be awesome to drop another 10 pounds before January 2 (my 6-month followup appointment), I don’t think it’s going to happen.  But I’d like to get pretty damned close.
  • Then this morning, I noticed this:
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My belly is about 5″ away from the steering wheel here, and my seat is moved up about halfway. At this time last year, my belly was about an inch away, and my seat was pushed all the way back. If it were more comfortable for my legs, I’d move my seat up a bit more.

So those things were awesome and worth celebrating.

It’s the end of the semester and I have been grading student work like a fiend.  My aversion to grading has caught up to me so now I’m frantically trying to get it all done.  So tomorrow morning after I head to the gym to work out for an hour or so, I’ll be sitting on my ass all day working my way through a very giant pile of grading so that I can get a little rest on Sunday, write my final exam, and cook some meals to get ready for the upcoming week.

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Courage Over Comfort and Accountability

“Courage over comfort.”–Brene Brown

I saw this statement posted in an online support group that I am a part of, and it really resonated with me.  I’ve been sneaking in a few more starchy carbs with my meals lately, and I know this needs to stop.  Now, before it gets out of control.

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Escape from the Ice!

We were finally able to get out of the house today! Thank goodness, because I had a serious case of cabin fever. My cabin fever was so bad I went outside in just a fleece jacket to de-ice our vehicles so that we would not have to do it in the morning when we both have to return to work.

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Post-Op Week 22 Progress Report and the Holiday Gauntlet

Good healthy loss of 2 pounds this week.  Today marks exactly 5 months since surgery, and I’m super pleased with my progress so far.  I don’t think that I’ll be one of those folks that makes it to my goal in less than a year, but I’m okay with that.  I don’t care how long it takes me to get there so long as I get there.

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In the past two months, I have lost roughly a third of my total…that blows my mind! 40 pounds down in 60 days…crazy, right?  But it shows you what a gastric sleeve and disciplined behaviors combined with support groups and therapy can do to improve one’s health.  One must also keep in mind that I started out much heavier than the average bear (close to 400 pounds with over 250 to lose), so if you are considering WLS and are what is considered a lightweight (100 pounds or less to lose), your weight loss may not be as dramatic.  Every body responds differently to weight loss surgery and the subsequent aftercare plan.  So as the diet companies’ commercials say, “results not typical.”

I am two pounds from my December goal which I hope to hit before Christmas break. I think it is possible, and am just going to keep on doing what I’ve been doing…I’ve been successful so far!   Then after that, it will be time to set a new weight loss goal.

Winter has always been a challenging time of year for me, whether or not I am in weight loss mode.
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