Tough Day Ahead

Not a lot to write about today.  No time.  And no real motivation.

Got a voicemail earlier tonight telling me to be at school really early tomorrow morning for a mandatory faculty meeting.  I later found out from a friend via Facebook the meeting is being convened because we had a senior student die today in a single-car accident.

Tomorrow will be tough.

I did not teach this student, but that doesn’t matter.  I will have students who know her and whose minds will be anywhere but my class and what we’re learning tomorrow.  I am feeling sad for them, and for the deceased student’s family–I taught one of the student’s siblings long ago.  Tomorrow I will be part counselor, part teacher, and part comforter.  I have a feeling there will be many tears, hugs, and students who will ask “why?”  And I won’t be able to answer them.  But I will do the best I can.  This isn’t the first time this has happened in my teaching career, and sadly, I know it will not be the last.

I also have to prep for a workshop I’m teaching on Saturday morning in a neighboring school district.  I am frazzled because I have had absolutely NO. TIME. this week to get ready for it.  I have been given little guidance as to what the teachers whose students I will be teaching want me to teach them.  So they will get the best I am able to give them on relatively short notice, little sleep and few calories.

I have to resist the urge to stress eat, because this situation definitely has the potential to drive me to stress eat, which was something I did quite frequently pre-op.  I think after I get home Saturday afternoon I will go to the park near our house and take a walk around the creek.  Hell, I might even run.  The stress relief will be welcome, and the peace I feel when I run will be necessary after the week I’ve had.

I did pretty well food-wise today:  95 grams of protein and 34 grams of fat.  It was a higher carb day, at 50 grams, but I’m okay with it.


Today’s food choices, from upper right: Boar’s Head Virginia ham and Sargento reduced fat cheese stick; leftover grilled tilapia, green beans in tomato sauce with a baked potato wedge; multivitamin and calcium supplements x2, iron and B12 supplements; sweet and spicy beef jerky; mini cheesy barbecue turkey meatloaf, mashed potatoes and roasted corn; Trader Joe’s chocolate nibs; Trader Joe’s turkey meatballs.

One response to “Tough Day Ahead

  1. You will be in my thoughts and prayers today. You have new clarity in your life. Make sure you take moments for yourself. A quick walk by yourself. You don’t need food to cope only to nourish. Xo

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