Eat, sleep, walk, repeat. That seems to be the tenor of my days lately. I wish I had a bit more variety with regard to my activity level but currently walking is all my schedule is allowing me these days. Sigh…
My rings were getting too loose and I was afraid I’d lose one. I’m thinking that once I get home tomorrow evening from the Rotary service project I’m working all day I’ll hit up a jeweler and buy a guard. It’s time.
Life has been way more busy than I prefer it to be lately. This is a tough thing for me to admit.
People who know me well know that I have always kept a busy calendar–whether it was busy with work stuff or social stuff, I’ve always had stuff going on. I have always enjoyed being busy. This is one of the reasons summers are so difficult for me–I find great difficulty in doing absolutely nothing and really hate having too much free time on my hands. I fear retirement for this reason.
My calendar these days is a little scary looking because I have had only a couple of free weekends so far this fall. Next weekend is the first one I will have had in a long time. This upcoming week, I’ll have two evenings free that I’m a little anxious about because I don’t even know what I’m going to do during that time. Normally I have meetings on both of those nights, and for the next week, they have both been cancelled.
Perhaps I’ll go for a walk since the weather is cooling off and the chill of Fall is in the air. I could use the walk and the quiet time to meditate on how much things have changed in the short time that I’ve had my sleeve. Perhaps I can think about setting new goals for myself because I seem to have shot down the goals I set for myself initially. In our group meeting last night, one of the things I shared with our group was that I wanted to participate in physical activity so that I could complete a 5K by my next birthday in March, even if I had to walk it. Dr. A, our group leader said, “Oh you’ll do one before then, easy.” In my head I hesitated to accept that because I don’t think I’ll be physically ready to do one before then. I don’t know if I’ll be mentally ready to do one by then either. I’m having a tough time with this whole idea that I am working my way down into a body that can be more physically active and that will be more physically active. It’s a weird headspace for me to be in. I’m trying to picture myself as a more active person and it’s a tough thing for me to envision. I have been a more active person before, and I know I will be that person again, but it is so tough to see that me in my head. I don’t understand what is blocking me from seeing her.
I’m trying to get in more walking each day by simply moving around my classroom more. All last school year, I would perch on my lab stool at the front of my room and teach from there. To teach standing up or even pacing back and forth was too painful and actually had me winded at times, which frustrated and embarrassed me. I couldn’t even stand the entire period to teach. Now, I can stand nearly the entire period, walk back and forth while talking, and teach my classes without getting tired or being in pain. I figure since I can’t get out during my planning period now to go on a walk, I might as well do it in the confines of my classroom.
I’m also noticing that when I walk, my pace is so much quicker than it’s ever been. I get from Point A to Point B so much faster than I have in a long, long time. This makes me super happy and excited that I might actually finish my 1-miler that I’m doing in a couple of weeks in a good bit under 30 minutes.
The one thing I need to work on right now is sleep. I’m not getting enough, and it’s not good for me. I really need about 7 hours each night to feel really good each day, and I’m simply not getting it. I’ve got to find a way to get myself to bed earlier each night. Something’s going to have to give so that I can.
Eating so far is going pretty well. I’m trying to reintroduce more veggies into my eating and so far it is working out pretty well. Now I can eat green beans, corn, broccoli, cooked carrots, lettuce, water chestnuts, scallions, squash, zucchini, peppers, and onions. I haven’t tried Brussels sprouts yet, but I want to because they’re one of my favorites. Maybe I’ll pick some up at the store this week.
Here’s what I’ve eaten the past two days. Today was a bit calorie-heavy (a little closer to 1000 calories) but I’m not sweating it since I was under calories most of the week anyway. Protein today was good: 87 grams.
Yesterday’s food choices were good as well and my protein was awesome: 99 grams.