Getting Antsy

I am nearly two weeks out from surgery and I’m starting to get antsy.

Daily, I fight the urge to step on the scale to see if it will move in the downward direction.  Before surgery, I promised myself I’d only weigh every Sunday.  I’ve already broken that promise to myself but I need to renew it.  There is simply too much fluctuation in your weight on a day to day basis to weigh and not drive yourself mad when the scale doesn’t look as you want it to.  But I know the scale has to be moving downward because when I look at my My Fitness Pal journal, I’m taking in just shy of 400 calories daily and expending way more than that.  And yes, I’m really trying to get in at least 600 right now, but when you are simply NOT hungry, it is hard to force yourself to drink ONE MORE PROTEIN DRINK, especially if you’ve hit your protein goal for the day.  Once I move to mushy foods, I’m setting my calorie goal slightly higher to account for the fact that I’ll be getting my calories and protein from food and not primarily protein drinks.

The Dermabond on my incisions is starting to peel off a little bit.  I need to call my doctor’s office tomorrow to see if this is normal.  I haven’t scratched at them or anything, but I noticed today after I got out of the shower that the Dermabond on a couple of the incisions is peeling up a little bit and I want to make sure this is supposed to happen, because some of the incisions are not quite fully closed up.  They’re itchy though, so this is good.  I just want the damn things to heal so I can go about the real business of exercising to accelerate this weight loss process a little bit.  That, and I want to build a routine before school starts so that it will already be in place.

I noticed the other day in the mirror that I am starting to see my deltoids again.  This was really encouraging because it reminded me that they do indeed exist!  It made me wistful for weight lifting, which I haven’t been cleared to do just yet since I haven’t had my first follow up appointment.  I am getting antsy to get back into working out again for a couple of reasons–I know it will speed my weight loss, and I know the strength training will tone my muscles and hopefully pull some of my skin a bit more taut so it doesn’t flap around as the weight comes off.

The workout plan includes the following things:

• Strength training–super important in sculpting muscles.  Thankfully I put on muscles like crazy when I do this.
• Cardio in the form of riding the recumbent bike at the gym–at one time I was up to nearly an hour on the bike.
• Water aerobics once I’m cleared to go swimming.
• Swimming–one of my all time favorite things to do.
• Once I’ve gotten enough weight off (about 125 pounds) and my joints can handle it, running.
• Eventually I’d like to see what this Zumba stuff is all about, because I have friends and family who do it and love it.

I just need clearance from my doctor to do these things so I can build a routine and stick with it.

She’s waiting (somewhat) patiently to be let out.  Follow up appointment on July 24 will tell me how much more I’m able to do to start letting her out bit by bit.

Operation Sorry For Sleeve Rocking will start in full force as soon as Dr. Nicholson says “yes, you can work out.”