I’m writing this post because I’m feeling really discouraged about this process. I had a rather large gain this week in part because Mother Nature decided she’d make her appearance, bringing her BFFs Bloat and Puffy to the party. Those two always overstay their welcome, especially on weigh-in days.
The other reason for the gain is simple: I’ve backslid. I’ve become complacent with my success, and am allowing myself to indulge way, way too often. I need to get strict with myself again, and get back to the regimen I started with back in August 2010. If only I knew what it was…I don’t have a written record of what I did foodwise. Tomorrow, I will begin writing every BLT (bite, lick, taste) into a paper journal so that I can keep a record of what I take in, from the foods I eat, to the meds and supplements I take, to the movement I do during the day. I know what I’m doing: I’m stress eating, and I’m not handling the stress in my life appropriately. I do know one thing: I am going to use the Groupon I have for group boxing classes this week, because getting to hit something will feel good and will let me take out my frustrations in a healthy way. At least if I hit a heavy bag, I’ll feel good and won’t hate myself afterward. Not like I would if I chowed down on a bag of chips or ate a bar of chocolate.
In the meantime, I’ll start a list so that I can put positive thoughts in my head as I work myself through the frustration I’ve got.
- Smaller clothes.
- Cuter clothes.
- Being able to fit in chairs with arms.
- Less joint pain.
- Compliments about how I look.
- Being taken off 1 diabetes medication.
- Having the dosage of the remaining diabetes medication reduced.
- Lower resting heart rate.
- Reducing the pressure on my knees when I walk.
- Feeling more confident about how I look.
- More stamina.
- Being able to lift tons of weight at the gym.
- Increased strength.
- Increased flexibility.
- Better sleep.
- Being able to stand up and teach most of the day.
- Being able to walk around my favorite cities to visit without being exhausted mid-day.
- Making better choices about food to eat.
- Trying new veggies and fruits.
- Seeing veins under my skin that I couldn’t see before.
- Feeling bones under my skin that I couldn’t feel before.
- Being able to ride the recumbent bike for 40 minutes straight.
I can’t think of anything else at the moment but I’m sure I’ll think of other reasons to stay in this fight.