Feeling a bit like the Red Queen…

I’ve been terrible about updating here, I know. Being a full-time teacher and wife while trying to take care of my health is not easy in the least…I don’t know how my colleagues with kids do it.

Not much has changed, weight-wise. I am at the same weight I was when I last updated. I can’t seem to get out of this weight bracket, and it’s really bothering me. I’ve tried counting calories, cutting carbs, cutting diet sodas, increasing protein, working out more, and nothing seems to be working. I’m on a monster plateau, and I feel like I can’t get off.

But I know changes are happening. My clothes are fitting better, I can see more veins under my skin, and I have muscle tone in places I didn’t use to have any. So what gives?

I take a multivitamin, a B12 supplement, a vitamin D supplement, CoQ10, green tea capsules (hate the taste of it so I refuse to drink it), and chromium picolinate. I wonder if there’s something else I should be taking?

I eat 8-9 servings of veggies/fruits a day, I eat whole grains, lean proteins, and eat few starchy carbs. Sugars are kept to a minimum since I’m diabetic, and I get quite a bit of fiber. I drink water and tea like a camel–anywhere from 12-14 cups a day.

I lift heavy weights, I ride the recumbent bike at the gym for 40 minutes at a time now, and still I fight with the same 5 pounds. I am tired of fighting the good fight. My motivation is at an all-time low–last week I only worked out twice, partly because I was super busy, but mostly because I’m starting to believe that no matter what I do, nothing is going to get me over this hump.

I need a reset button, something to get me back on track and going again. I wish I knew what it was.

I will be grateful for the summer, and for the time off. The stress I’m experiencing because of work is tremendous, and perhaps all the corticosteroids I’m releasing are stifling my efforts at weight loss. The biologist in me thinks about that a lot, because I know cortisol can contribute to weight gain. Perhaps taking up yoga is in order?

I don’t know…I just know that I need things to move along tout suite, or I will end up right back where I began in August 2010. And that is not a place I ever want to be again.

One response to “Feeling a bit like the Red Queen…

  1. Hang in there, Mexcellent one. Here’s my takeaway from this entry “My clothes are fitting better, I can see more veins under my skin, and I have muscle tone in places I didn’t use to have any.” You are making progress! I am in awe of you!

    Although you still have a lot of weight to lose, it’s important to remember that it’s just a number. It sounds like your body is just re-adjusting to the size it used to be, like it remembered that it was this size before and is perfectly comfortable right there, thank you. Give yourself some time. Maybe just tell yourself that you will allow yourself to stay at this weight until the end of school- not gaining, just not freaking out if you don’t lose. Then, when summer hits, you should be less stressed and maybe will have given your body enough of a rest to re-kick start it back into losing mode.

    You have lost more weight than both of my children together, which is pretty damn cool. You have made great strides and will continue to make great strides. You are healthier than you have been in a long time. Your body thanks you.

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