Post-Op Week 58 Progress Report: Back to Work, or Why I Keep Busy

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Really pleased with this week’s progress.  I am hopeful this will continue, given that I head back to school this week and won’t be around my fridge all day.  As someone who eats out of boredom, this is a big deal.  It’s also one of the main reasons I’ve kept myself so busy this summer–if I am not constantly occupied, I will eat because it’s something to do. 

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Post-Op Week 57, Skinny Bitches and Dreaming the Impossible Dream…Weight

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Down nearly a pound this week, but that’s the water retention from this past week subsiding.  I just want my belly not to stick out past my boobs, is that too much to ask??  I don’t care if I have the middle-aged lady pooch, I just don’t want to look like I have a beer gut!

I’m starting to think that my goal (170) might be unreachable, especially since I have been dancing around the same weight for the past month or so.  At this point, I will be glad to get down below 200 pounds to get to the vaunted “Onederland,” which is just 20 pounds away.  But losing that 20 pounds seems insurmountable. 

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Random: Who Are You and Bariatric Snacks

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  • Giant workout shirt:  check
  • Compression capris:  check
  • Ponytail pulled through a ballcap:  check
  • iPod loaded with curated workout playlists:  check
  • Knee brace, the fitness accessory all active middle-aged women are sporting this season:  check
  • Fitness monitoring gadgets (Fitbit and HRM):  check
  • Liter bottle of water, to be downed during 70 minute workout:  check
  • Inner turmoil and confusion about who this woman is, because it doesn’t look like me:  check

I swear, looking at this picture of me, I really don’t look like me.  I look at it and I can’t believe that I inhabit the body in the photo above.  I’m trying hard to get acquainted with the woman whose body I have come to inhabit, and it’s tough.  I have enjoyed getting to dress her, but getting to know her…that’s a totally different proposition altogether and a tougher task.

On an unrelated note…

There is a lady in the weekly weight loss support group I attend that complains about how she’s always hungry.  So she tells us she goes to the kitchen and gets a “bariatric snack.”  When pressed to describe what the “bariatric snack” is, she tells us it’s a bag of chips that are marketed as some sort of snack food appropriate for WLS patients.

Now here you see 3 ounces of roasted boneless skinless chicken breast.  THIS is a “bariatric snack,” not a damn bag of artificially created protein chips.  When you eat real food, you stay satisfied longer, and hey.. this only has one ingredient: chicken.

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A REAL bariatric snack: roast chicken.

 

 

Post-Op Week 56 Progress Report: Aiming at New Targets

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Just like it is every month around this time…here’s the step back in this cha-cha of weight loss.  My ankles were puffy this morning despite being in bed for nearly 9 hours and downing over a gallon of fluid yesterday.  I’m not going to sweat it but that doesn’t make this any less frustrating.

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Post-Op Week 55 Progress Report

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I am pleased with this week’s progress.  It seems that taking the week off from the gym didn’t have as ill an effect as I thought it might.  I did try to eat under 1200 calories every day to make up for the fact that I simply wasn’t as active as usual.  I was in a knee brace until Friday, so I kept my activity to a minimum this week to let my knee recover from the sprain I sustained while running on Monday.  Continue reading

One Year Follow Ups

I had a one-year follow up with my primary care doc on Tuesday, which turned out to be fabulous.  My labs came back beautifully:

cholesterolratiosMy fasting blood glucose was 81 and my a1c?  Completely normal.  Liver enzymes were back down to normal levels after having been high the first two months of this year.  My iron levels are great, and all my electrolytes are normal.  Blood pressure is fantastic and better yet–my doctor used a REGULAR SIZE CUFF to take it!  No extra large cuff this time!  She was thrilled that my health was vastly improved, and we started talking about mammograms and all that jazz…yep, it’s time for me to start doing those on the regular as now I am a lady of a certain age.  Since my gyno isn’t practicing any more, I got a recommendation for a new one (who ONLY does gynecology, no obstetrics–thank goodness) who I will be calling to see in the fall once school starts.  I have to figure out if she is on our new insurance that goes into effect September 1.  UGH INSURANCE.

That was the first doctor’s appointment of the week.  Today’s appointment was the bigger deal since it was with my surgeon, who I had not seen since last August when my husband had surgery with him.

I went in prepared.  Like any other ‘A’ student, I had a list of questions to ask.

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What Liberation Looks Like To Me Today

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I’d made a to-do list for today, and at the top of it was giving my new running shoes a go at the gym.  That was moderately successful.  I tweaked my left knee and aggravated a decades-old knee injury, so there won’t be any running for me in the foreseeable future.

Second on that list was to call each of the credit card companies that I had accounts with for stores that sold plus-sized clothing so that I could close the accounts.  I sat and called each one, methodically, systematically, and with great cheer closed each account.

As I closed each one, I felt a weight being lifted from my shoulders.  It also felt a bit like slash-and-burn clear-cutting of a field.  And I suppose it sort of is, in a way:  I made way both literally and metaphorically for new clothing choices by shedding the keys to the stores that for so long were my only choice for clothing.

And now that I can wear an XL in misses clothing, the possibilities for me to look pretty freakin’ awesome are wide open.